wow its been ages since I have posted here hehe, well I am alive if anyone wants to add me on facebook I do use it =) and I still do read around on here but I'm just busy with trying to put my life back together atm since I went through a lot of depression and I am in therapy but I am pulling through =).
I am still alive...still here..I will be updating this once I get the chance to. Maybe later I don't know..But for the most part I am in love with someone and working my butt off to go be with them. ^_^
Well I haven't been on here in a long time, really not much to say. My horse passed away a few weeks before New Years. He slipped and broke his neck while being washed. I really miss him alot... I am currently addicted to WoW..yes >.<...eee, the pets!. Bah the computer is acting up right now so I can't play, did play a bit of guild wars ..not as fun but its cool. Hope everyone is doing good.
Today I found out that my mom is dead. She must have died sometime in her sleep last night. She had fallen a week ago and was on meds. So I don't know if the fall or if the meds were what killed her. I have been crying so much over it and I am trying to tell myself she is alive. I don't know when I will get around to updating this but yea. Take care and if you have a mother, please hug her and tell her that you love her no matter how much you may not get along. I wish I could have done something for my mom, she was my best friend ever and like a sister to me. I love you always mom. I will also be giving up my first horse ever to own which is the one thing my mom tried hardest to keep because she knew I loved him. I will have to lose two of the most important things to me.
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<_< I am still here >_>!..*smacks self* Must get layout and everything up ..I am lazy lol x.x and I forget stuff..but but I shoulddddddddddddddddd get it up @_@ one day lol..nah nah..I will get it up ..just dont want people to think I am gone oo;
sorry for not getting stuff done..>.o..I have been working with my horse on getting him ready for a show in January..so I promise I will get this up and going ;D..just give me time hehe..
I have updated my info..I am just working on some parts so don't mind the "x" boxes ^^;..gomen....well I will be having pictures of me up sometime soon and my new layout ..my lazy butt is moving slower..gomen gomen ..well take care..comment if you want..;_;..love me?
just a update to let people know..I am working on it ;D!..I will be updating..I know I say that..I have just been busy with my horse..;D..will have pictures of him up too!
I haven't updated in forever..>.<..been soo busy with lessons..and such..forgive me..I will update soon I promise ..just gotta get the account paid for and get my userinfo done..;D..take careeee..don't give up on me ^-^...I am still alive.
I'm gonna update once my journal is paid for which should be soon..=]..I will be making a new layout..new info..tell you everything ..if you deleted me because i didnt update..I am sorry for not being here..;_;..if you want to add me back go ahead (ugh I but "go away" lol sorry)
We leave this friday for Maui,Hawaii *squeals*..I can't wait to get into the house..but first we are going to be staying at the Fairmont Kea Lani in a Deluxe Ocean View Suite cause we have to do some shopping for beds and other things for the house. I also had to give up the squirrels..I miss them so much ;_;..x_x ugh packing has made me tired and taking care of the squirrels did too. Just had to give a little update ^^;. I don't know when I will be back online but I hope it will be soon. *hugs all* take care!!
Update: Here are pictures of Kea Lani and the suite we are staying at.
I am really moving to Maui, Hawaii. My mom just paided the first months rent on the house!!.. I have to pack and stuff but I am happy. I have pictures of the house that the guy sent us. My mom also let me have some of her stuff. A Rolex watch and two rings. ok here are the pictures.
Well in the happy news I have some pictures of me again, forgive me for being so damn ugly. Don't look if you want to be blinded to death O_o. The sad news is I cut myself again. I used one of those metal things (don't know what to call them) on the coke cans to cut. I do have pictures, the cut looks worse in person then on my stupid webcam. I did peel off the scab cause it was itching, it started bleeding some.
*blows the dust off of my journal* ..I am sorry if I haven't updated ..I have been very busy..My mom and grandma are trying to move to Maui,Hawaii. ^_^ Yes thats right folks I am moving to Hawaii but for now I am going to do a new layout once my account gets paid again. I don't know yet when we will be moving but until then I will be quite busy. I feel bad for not updating *Huggles* v_v. Oh and I am taking care of 2 baby squirrels, one is a boy and the other is a girl. I am up every 4 hours feeding them puppy milk. The mother got scared and left the baby boy and the storm we had here knocked the little baby girl's nest out of the tree. We didn't want to leave either one out there because there are cats that run around the neighborhood. Well that is all for now. I will keep you updated on everything.
I have sad news *sighs*.. I talked to my mom last night on the computer and she told me my gerbil had died. I was so heart broken, I had Nikki for close to 4 or 5 years. I cried so hard last night over it. My mom said I can get another one, but I don`t know if I will be able to find one like her again. I really wish I could have been there when she died, I blame myself somewhat for it. I shouldn`t have left her, maybe she would have lasted longer if I had been there. I had always said if she were to die, I wanted to die with her *sighs*. What do I do?..I hate to have something I love die on me. She had got sick for a while and I was worried but she got better. She was playing an having fun when I took her out the cage a few days before I left for Houston. Ah-well I will go now ..take care everyone.
I am leaving for Houston, I am heading out Saturday to Toronto ..My layout looks like crap so I am going to see if a can get a friend to fix the box for me..
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